I had to go into work today for my annual review. Ugh. I hate these things. To make matters worse, instead of someone else reviewing me I had to review myself. I had tried to work on this this several times while I was working, but never finished and so I went in this morning to complete my self review. I tossed and turned in bed last night, waking up several times and was literally sick to my stomach when I woke up.
My whole life I've been taught to act humbly and put others first. When you do a self evaluation you can't be humble or self-deprecating. Well I guess you can, but you won't get a raise. It was so difficult to type out why I should be rated highly and what I have done to deserve high numbers. It seemed too close to bragging, and that goes against every grain of my being. It took me a couple hours to complete it and I still felt uncomfortable and squirmy-in-my-seat when I was finished.
I think that you need to sit back and evaluate your self esteem before you go into something like this. Yes, there is a place and time for humbleness, but you also should be proud of your accomplishments and achievements. This is something that I need to learn. I can be proud of what I've done and I do deserve that recognition (because you sure don't get recognition for your accomplishments as a mother). That was my lesson for today.